Where she writes down the flavors of life...

Lazy girl...

2009-05-01T06:17:00.002-07:00

I should be blogging.

But i'm lazy.

Even more lazy when it comes to uploading pics and tagging captions...

I guess i can't be a professional blogger.

Hehe.

Anyway i already filtered the pics. Will blog ab0ut spore trip soon. (Hopefully)

I got 100++ pics. So wait for me ya....

I....

2009-03-28T23:09:00.000-07:00

....bought an iphone 3G last week.
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....am flying to Singapore to spend a weekend (late April) at liching's place.
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....am going to KL in mid May to visit gepc & uni buddies.
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....hope the plan to Bali in July will come to pass.

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....want to go Redang with the lincah gang, somewhere around sept.
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I'm 24.

So right now whatever is in my thoughts,

JUST DO IT.
-Nike-

My fellow PRPs

2009-03-20T20:31:00.000-07:00

Did i mention how i spend my 2008 birthday?

It made me believe that 2009 will be a good start.

Friendship for example.

Nadiah, Juliet, Ivory, Nisha and me

Eversince i'd started working, i've been missing a hell lots of my kl buddies.

And weekend duty, which happened to fall on my birthday did not make things better.

It used to be the lincah gang who always throw birthday blasts every year. It made me miss them even more.

And now, just when i thought 2008 is going to be all by myself,
A new group of ppl came in and fill the void in my heart.

Just right in time.

It meant a lot to me. Thanks girls.

They surprised me. I never thought that they would remember.

It was also Nisha's belated birthday.

Friendship is a really funny thing.

I have never spoken to Nisha and Nadiah during 4 years in university.

And before we became colleagues in SGH, we had the same impression on each other.

Nisha: I used to think that you are proud, and annoying. Because you never looked at me or talked to me. Once i talked to u and u just walked away. Hmph!

Rachel: er....U talked to me?? Since when?? How come i don't know one?!?! I baru used to think that you are arrogant and looked down at me.

Nadiah: That is why we are so surprised that as we get to know you...the more you are not like what we think u are. Now as we starting to work together as colleagues... we baru understand y last time u don't hiew us because ur character is memang like that.... BLUR and always CLUELESS!

Hahahahaha...

Never judge a book by its cover.

You'll never learn if you never know.

I looked like a kid because too happy and surprised.

Juliet and Ivory are always so helpful and friendly to me.
They know i'm blur all the time...don't mind to offer me directions and update me what is going on in the hospital. And not to forget... GOSSIPS!

So, we are the gossip girls + Bing! gang + Starbucks kaki-kaki

Nadiah, the Cool and intelligent one.

Nisha, who has the first and biggest fan club in the hospital.
She has 4-5 doctors stalking her...no play play ar...

Rachel, who is always clueless.

Juliet, the sporting, independent and beautiful one.
Thanks for all the trouble u've gone for me.
I know what u did. And i appreciate it.

Ivory, who is always cheerful and helpful, and who always have a caring heart for the people around her.
I know you are the event manager.
You are an angel. Thank you so much.

As i said, the day i turned 24 was indeed meaningful, like no others.

I want I want!!

2009-03-16T20:03:00.001-07:00

Apple iphone

I AM SO GONNA GET ONE!!!!

I shall patiently until august and this baby will be mine~~~!

Bali

Travel period - 5th to 8th July

Kaki-kaki yang interested - Liangsan, u5, Juliet and me.

Anyone else wants to join~?

Be myself

2009-03-15T09:54:00.000-07:00

Work hard every day to be the best person you can be,
but never feel guilty if you fall short of your goals.

Every sunrise offers a second chance

I should always remember my motto,

"You don't have to be somebody else to be happy.
You are made special, you are who you are."

The world has much to offer, and I have much to give.

Gambate! ^.^

让我再一次拥有

2009-03-06T17:42:00.000-08:00

难得的周末, 我不需要上班。

但是，我还是很早起床。

习惯了吧。。。

好喜欢这种感觉，这个沉静的时刻.

属于我自己的空间。。。

我一个人的世界。。。

这时候，我最想做什么呢？

我回到我的最爱的身边。。。

我的吉它。

我抚摸着久违的吉它。。。

好久了。。。

自从变成工作狂了以后。。。

都把它遗忘在房间里的黑暗角落里了。。。

还记得怎样弹吗。。。？

我突然间很不想面对。。。

吉他，带给我太多的深刻回忆了。

他一次又一次的背叛，使我的心一次又一次的被践踏。

终于，我不等了。放弃了。

也同时封闭了自己。

不想提起，不想说，不想被安慰。。。

我就是这样，不想人用可怜的眼光看我。

让我保留仅剩的自尊。

是它，陪我度过一年多难熬的日子。

纾解了一直以来没人明白，痛苦压抑的心情。

也因为它，朋友们看到了我外表以外的一面。。。

。。。拉近了我们之间的距离。

他们也成了我最重要的朋友。

Sabrina。每次我学到新歌就会很兴奋的到她房间，请她作我的歌手。

而她，就会放下书本。

我边弹，她边唱。

能送给朋友最可贵的礼物，就是“时间”。

最难忘的就是prom night, 我们竟然上台表演～～

Dollie, 每次都很赏脸做我的观众。

每次唱完就感觉怪怪的。。。

“errr....这种歌好像是男朋友唱给女朋友的嘞。。。。”

别紧张，我们不会变成女同志！（拜托〕

Christina, 有时候你的脚开始发痒，好几次很严重使你不睡觉，

你的痛苦不是常人可以承担的。

我好怀念那段日子。。。

帮你上药还有按摩。

我们跟你聊天，希望说能转移你的注意力。

我们还一起祷告，唱诗歌。

晓蓉，

好想念，和晓蓉在房间里教她弹吉他的日子。

其实，我是知道的，当时你的用心。

你只是想陪着我，不让我沉浸在胡思乱想里面。

你总是静静地听我弹琴。。。

那时，你知道只有这样能让我开心。

慢慢的，我们有了默契。

有什么好听的歌曲，我们就迫不急待的和对方分享。

我如果整天在房里不出来的话，你会主动进来和我一起弹琴唱歌。

你面对考试压力的时候，我就过来为你祷告。

我很感谢你们的鼓励和照顾。

我的心虽然碎了，你们耐心地帮我一片一片地拼凑。

毕业后，你们还好吗？

有时上网, 你们问我好吗？

我答说，“好嘞，别担心！”

对不起。。。

现在的我想说真话。。。

我不是很好。

我有好多好多的话想和你们说。

在这里不是没朋友，但能让我说出真心话的没几个。。。

我还在适应。

不是很习惯上班族的生活。

在医院或家里，我都一直生活在压里下。

我不再坚强了。。。

以前。我很清楚自己要的是什么，如今。。。我的坚持跑哪去了？

你们看我这样，会不会很失望？

。。。。

此时此刻，我想起了很多事情。

我应该要振作。

这些年来，已经经历了那么多，

只要有信念，任何时候都可以重新开始。

但是，我还是很想回到过去。。。

5个单身女子同住一个屋檐下的吵闹欢笑的日子。

我摸摸我吉他的铉。。。

还好。。。没生锈。。。

弹了一首 “再一次拥有”。。。

还好。。。。。

。。。。没忘。

My photography

2009-03-04T05:50:00.000-08:00

After the China trip, i realized its time to get a new camera model.

I'm not quite satisfied with the photos taken.

(Cheh...this Rachel sounds as if she's a pro..~) lolz

This is just a brief post about my trip.

Guangzhou - GuiLin

I will blog in more details next time. (Depends on the mood..hehe~)

Come, let me show u.

First, the creation of God.

Li Jiang. 漓江.

I brought along a model somemore~

阳朔, 遇龙河
Yu Long River

Fisherman. Look at his raft. Its made of 5 long giant bamboos.

We also visited a place more or less like Garden of Eden, described in the bible.

桃花 Peach blossoms

This is also one type of blossoms. But i don't know what is the family lar.

Captivating, isn't it?

Erm. I have no idea what's the name of this flower. Still nice, right?

The crops fields.

Next, the people.

夜市西街. The streets.

Check out this man.

Do you see what i see?

桂林步行街. GuiLin Streets.

Great food + best place for shopaholics like me.

Next Next, Adorable China kids.

Innocent and carefree.

Abused.

Why do i used the word 'Abused'?

Because many women used little children to sell handicrafts to tourists.

Sympathy = money.

The child will keep begging you to buy.
If you don't, the "MUM" will curi cubit the child.

What if the child is not even theirs?

Just think about it.
(No wonder everyone says China people can be that heartless when comes to business)

Next Next Next, A pic of my model.

Lastly,

TaoHua River in GuangZhou. 广州桃花江

Sunset. (Credit to my sis)

Bye Bye. I shall be back soon~~

Back in Action!

2009-03-03T04:39:00.000-08:00

Actually hor....I have so much things that i wanted to blog about....

About my friends, my China holiday and recent lessons i'd encountered.

But i just don't know where and how to begin.

Also, i'd run out of energy to blog.

After the working hours, laziness reigns.

Ooo Ooo Ooo.... i wanna say smth here, which makes me very very excited...

It's about somebody~~~

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GARY CHIA~!!!

(Yea yea i 'curi'ed ur photo from facebook....yea yea call me a stalker...so wad?! u called me ur crush also lar!)

This clown (aka future doctor/specialist) is coming to kuching for his training. He will be here for 1 month.

And for the last time, NO I DON'T HAVA A CRUSH ON YOU, GARY!!

*sweat*

It's been 10 months ady since i last met Gary.

Seeing Gary again means a lot to me...because it reminds me of irreplaceable memories i had with GEPC.

I really miss you guys.

My CG.

My sisters and brothers.

Without you all, i would never become who i am today.

You guys inspired me.

Helped me to discover hidden miracles and wonders.

I experienced God through the church.

Especially cell group.

I'm glad you guys are doing fine right now.

Though my time to enjoy the harvest was short.

I'm really glad what i've sowed has grown to bless others.

GEPC. I have never forgotten you.

Recent pics

2009-02-14T19:40:00.000-08:00

I got one bad news and also one good news.

Bad news --> I pissed a doctor off. Now i'm waiting for a complaint to be made to my big boss.

Good news --> I'll be away to China with my family for the next 8 days.

Anyway, i know my temper.
I'd been insomnia for the past week. Working like a mad dog in OPD. Not eating proper meals lately.
Of course smth is boiling hot in me.

Stupid doctor expects me to get her late collection in the middle of dispensing, especially when i'm alone and many patients who are still waiting (and they've been waiting for more than 1 hour!!)

Never mind. Breathe.

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Enough about work.

I just realized i've been writing a lot of posts without pics.

So here are some pics. But only a few because I'm too busy and lack of photo-taking mood.

Okay. This is how i spend my valentine.

Kesian hor?

No lar. As long i got my beloved...

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Tada~~~ My only motivation in the hospital~~~

Oh yeah. Recently. I got so thankful for having these great colleagues.

Nisha. Nadya. Weimeng. Juliet. Ida.

I've so much to share about u guys. But all these will have to wait till i come back from my trip.

Thanks to Frankie for capturing this photo.
That boy...dunnoe what happened to him...now become a photographing freak.

Still can't believe my friend, siewhong has a baby.
Little ashton loves to be with the crowd.

Look at him smiling~~

I wonder when i'll have one....

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*GASP*

Err.... No thanks.

A pic taken during CNY.

My cousin was driving and my sis got carsick for the first time.

During another cousin's wedding. Nothing to be proud of. Because its just a rich ppl occasion.

Actually i wanted to write about this wedding but better not.
If the post is "surfed" by any of my cousins, I'm doomed.

Okay that's all.

More pics? Ya, wait till i come back from China.

I already charged my camera kau kau liaw~~

So i'm gonna miss u guys very very very much. :)

2009-02-11T19:23:00.000-08:00

虽然你我素不相识，我不会叫你的牺牲白费。

我一定会更积极的面对人群。

明知道你不可能会读到这些。。。

我还是要和你说一次，“对不起”。

盼望有一天我们有缘再见面。。。

挥不去的愧疚

2009-02-11T06:32:00.000-08:00

对不起

对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起

对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起
对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起

对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起

都是因为我的自以为是.....不小心害了你....

一千万句对不起弥补不了我的过错。。。也减轻不了我对你的伤害。。。

真的。。。真的。。。真的很对不起。。

我不是故意的。。。

我就是笨。。。什么事都作不好。。。

不管你在哪里。。。在做什么。。。

我会用我最虔诚的祈祷。。。

祝福你健康，快乐和平安。

对不起。

都是我不好。

希望你再也不要遇到像我这样的人。

Can't break free....

2009-02-05T06:01:00.000-08:00

Urgh....feel so nauseated...

Guess i'm still not in the mood of story-telling.

But i have one question for us girls...

Nowadays...do we have to marry "rich guys" to be happily ever after?

What matters?

FACE?
so that your marriage brings honor to your family? by comparing what type of car ur husband is driving and how big is the house?

Lame old timer question....
Roti or love?

Does money has to say it all????

I mean seriously...come on....

Why parents nowadays are making big fusses over these?

Do they understand that it makes us twice miserable to see them unable to lift their head high in front of the other relatives?

And it also makes us miserable for not being with the one you love.

Well, i'm sorry for not lucky enough to find a golden turtle.

For all the achievements i did so far in my life, you were never proud of me.

Or its not enough to make you proud of me.

It's never enough.

Other kids are always better than me.

You see things in them which are never found in me.

You know what's best for me. I know it perfectly.

That's why you never understand the reason why i'm not happy.

You just felt that why am i not like other children.

Sigh.

i'm sorry. I tried my best.
I've done everything to make you happy but it all seems invisible.

I know it is never up to me to decide what i want. Or what i want to do.

I never fight back because i know how much those plans means to you.
Those are your expectations for your little girl to experience a better life.

And yes thanks to you that i'm now successful.

But everytime when i looked back in my life,
I see a lot empty gauges i weren't able to fill in back then because i'd let go of the chances.
Those were my dreams.

How many times do you want me to let go?

You judged first without trying to know ppl.

Just like how you never learn to understand your children.

Pissed

2009-01-31T06:54:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone. Wassup.

What happened at my cousin's wedding today is....totally unbelievable.....

The humiliation....

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AARRRRGGGHHHH!!!

THAT'S WHY I WILL NOT GET A BOYFRIEND WHO IS RICH
no matter how desperate i am!

EVER!!!!

Urgghhh....I really feel like....strangling someone's head off right now....

Eww...rich people...they think they are Gods.

Will tell the story in the next post.

I need to drink some green tea to put out the fire burning in me.

2009-01-25T08:16:00.001-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!

2009 is gonna be awesome for everyone~~~

Love ya, muaks!!

World

2009-01-19T18:31:00.000-08:00

I'm a Big Big Girl in a Big Big World.

Yeah i just starting to realize its a "dog-eat-dog" world i'm in.

The place where i spent more than 40 hours in a week, spreads gossips even faster than the HK paparazzi.

Nah, don't worry. I'm clean. I mean for not being a part of the rumors.

Careful, there are people watching your back time to time. If you don't behave well, don't be surprised that you're the next hot topic in less than 1 hour.

Sigh.

Many things happened lately.

Before i go to bed everynight, i ask myself the same question over and over again...

"What have i become?"

Two of my colleagues are facing danger of disqualification because of their behaviors, the least of condolences i can offer to them is to shut my mouth.

But when you start to be pitiful for them, others will look at you like one kind...
"why do you even feel sorry for them?"

Why has it become so different?
A Christian graduated from university to working world...

It's so difficult to fit in.

Bible says mouth is where the source of evil origins.

So true. Without realizing, i have become one of the "american idol judges".

I'm sorry. I shouldn't be a part of this.

Who knows one day i will be the dish on the table for people to devour?

Four months in the working world. I got this conclusion.

Focus on your job. Be responsible and Stay out of trouble.

If other people in trouble, better stay out from it too.

Though i pretty much want to help. There's nothing i can do.

So is that it?

I'm just gonna watch?

I don't know....

This is not me...

But...its me...

Then...... i found out the most luxurious and peaceful moment you can ever get out from this world is a pillow, a bed and a blanket, where whatever is in the world has nothing to do with you....

...at least for a few hours.

Tommorrow's a new day.

Who will be the topic of the day?

P/S: Though my Big boss would like to hear about how irresponsible my preceptor is,
this dog REFUSE to bite another dog's tail!

We are the reasons

2008-12-24T04:25:00.000-08:00

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we’d find
But we never realized a baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

*We were the reason that He gave His life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of love
All because of love

*Chorus

I finally found the reason for living
It’s in giving every part of my heart to Him
And all that I do every word that I say
I’ll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

We are the reason that He gave His life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live.

Love was born on Christmas day

2008-12-24T03:44:00.000-08:00

My family sees Christmas as the most precious event of the year.

My mum would nicely decorate the house to show how excited she is.

It's our family tradition to buy Christmas presents in advance and gather them under the Christmas tree so that we could open them together on Christmas day.

I would also buy Christmas presents for people whom I care about.
Even to friends I hardly talk to. Hehe.

In our hearts, "CHRISTMAS" means to share love, appreciation and Joy.

Thanks + Giving

But, its not about the presents.

Also not about parties and countdown clubbings.

And its not just about spending time with your love ones...

It's about a baby, a gift from God for you and me.

He, who has all the glory and majesty, could have stayed in heaven, continue commanding his angels, looking down at millions of us from heaven, thinking..."you don't need me, fine."

Yet, He chose to come down to earth for us, putting aside his crown, to live among the poor and the sick.

Who am i....for a king to serve us like this...to tell us in person that we have a HOME together with Him in heaven.

His birth, brings salvation to all mankind.

He was born to carry our sins.

And on the night when He was born...

...a cross was already awaiting...

And now....

Where are you?

Where am I?

Christmas is calling....

"The best gift one could ever have is already at your door....

Can you see it?

Can you receive it?"

or are you just gonna let it pass by, like just any other ordinary day?

Jesus, will wait. Because He loves you.

:)

Merry Christmas.

Hospital, pembuli besar

2008-12-17T07:23:00.000-08:00

No time to blog in detail.

3 presentations in 1 week. Last fri, today and this coming fri.

I have 24 hours to prepare upcoming case presentation.

Hate powerpoint. So sien of it.

Hate Albert. Him and his never-ending diabetes story.

Hate rainy days.

Hate the fact that i will not be able to enjoy this Christmas season because my job does not allow me to do so.

Well i don't care.
This is me.
If they got a problem with my presentation attidute,
that's their problem.

I did my best.

What else do they expect to me to do?
I've been working like a cow for the past few weeks, overtime like crazy! (for crying out loud!!!!)

SO DON'T TELL ME THAT I DIDN'T DO ENOUGH!!

*Pause and breath*

Anyway, that's the way i am. Take it or leave it.

And i'm not gonna let all these havoc to rob my Christmas joy.

CTW

2008-12-10T03:35:00.000-08:00

在CTW的日子，算起来有一个月了。

很辛苦，真的很辛苦。

多少辛酸，无奈和沮丧都给硬生生的吞回去。

压力已经形容不了我的工作所带来的。

我没那么幸运。
我的“师父”很常都不在病房。
没人指点我－该做的是什么，该知道的是什么，同样的guideline要怎样用在不同的病人身上。。。

我，咬紧牙关。。。独挑大梁。

一切都要靠自己。
一点一滴充实自己。

面对医生的冷言冷语，也要忍。

人家放假或放工，我还在病房里埋头苦干，看病历又看病人，
我想要多了解病人。
最其码跟医生巡房时，我不想看起来Blur blur的。

Clinical pharmacist（临床药剂师〕是负责保证用药安全、有效、和正确的药物使用。

“病人到底用哪种药才能对症治疗？”
“每种药要开多大剂量才更有效?”

就好像是walking dictionary。

还要educate病人怎样在日常生活中，和药物与病情取一个平衡。

我沮丧。是因为不是每一个问题我都懂得答。

可是自上个星期开始，我忽然领悟了一个道理。

我的存在价值应该是为我的病人。

我应该要关心他们有没有得到最好的药物治疗。

所以除了跟医生巡房，我也开始做我自己的巡房。哈哈！

我拿着病历，一边考查一边和病人说话。
原来，他们连自己的病情发展得如何，吃什么药都不懂。
我就教他们吃药的原因，每种药的用途还有如何防止恶化。

我现在不知道跟他们多么friend~

针对他们的需要，我向医生建议了不少。

比如，
病人开始感到头昏脑涨，可能是因为这种药的副作用，应该换去另外一种试试看。
那个病人喊膝盖疼不是因为骨头的问题，而是肾工能越来越坏，排不出去的毒素(uric acid)聚在关节，导致发肿。应该给colchicine.

很多医生注意不到的小细节都被我无意间发现到。
为病人提供更好的药物选择。
我还detect到很多医生的错误。

我学到，最重要的是病人。
身为医务人员，如果真正关心自己的病人，我们的知识就有发挥的余地，并为他们作到最好。

然候，回馈是。。。无限的满足感和快乐。

这个星期是在CTW最后的training period.

当我把这个消息告诉了医生，我对他们的反应感到很惊讶。

“怎么这么快？太可惜了。Its fun having you around.”

“再extend多两个星期啦～～”

我最感动的是接下来这一句。。。
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“你，是我看过最勤劳的实习生。keep it up.”

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我的努力被受到肯定。

再难挨。。。都值得了。

Low Batt

2008-11-27T05:44:00.000-08:00

I'm becoming more and more like a primary 4 student...

...who sleeps at 10pm and wakes up at 5am the next morning...

Actually i should be reviewing my cases after work at home...

...read up some clinical guidelines...

And compiling the paperwork...
(....the-stupid-meaningless-paper-wasting cp1,2 & 3...)

Yeah...ought to do all that so that my work will not be accumulating, and i'm able to answer the doctor's questions, be more involving in the management of the patients, and probably get to do some interventions...

BUT

Yeah.

Rookie's diary - Part 2

2008-11-19T14:30:00.000-08:00

Currently doing clinical practice in Cardiothorasic ward.

It's sucking life out from me.

Felt more and more nauseous everyday with never-ending case clerking.
i really wish my patients don't be discharged.
(So that i can just review instead of clerking new cases)
(yeah i'm bad)

Have to interview every new patient everyday.

Get prescription. Go IPD. Bungkus medication. Bring back to ward. Counseling.

U know what's making me crazy?

After counseling a patient, a nurse came to me again with a new prescription.

And the cycle continues....endlessly.

I have to travel from IPD to ward a few rounds each day.

And the most exciting part is....it always have to be after 1pm or 5pm.

Now i'm going home at 6:30 everyday.

and I miss a hell lot of OPD.

A short diary entry from a pharmacist-rookie

2008-11-04T05:01:00.000-08:00

U know...

Even after repeating a zillion times of instructions like these...
(even at sleep i can't get them out from my head)

"Ini antibiotic ha...jadi mesti makan habis ho...makan ini 2 biji 4 kali sehari ha..."

"Ini Omeprazole untuk gastric punya haa. Jadi makan pada waktu pagi dengan perut kosong ya."

"Ini painkiller ho. Ambil selepas makan nasi yaa. Kalau tidak sakit perut o."

"Encik tahu bagainmana guna insulin 30/70 kah?"

"Ini ubat kerongkong haaa. Minum 10ml 3 kali sehari."

"Masih ada balance. Balik lagi ya pada tarikh ini."

Etc Etc Etc.

Until u got so sick of the same thing over and over again.

And yet.

When there's one patient out of one hundred came over to your counter and say...

"Thanks, Miss Tan."

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It really feels great.

Yeah. I'm glad i chose pharmacy.

HORROR

2008-11-02T22:07:00.000-08:00

I tell you.

Something is definitely going WRONG in me.

I've lost almost 7kg in 5 months!!

It's going down and down and down like nobody's business!!!

I need an emergency care plan...i mean Fattening plan...

Btw...*ahem* i bought a new pair of skinny jeans just now...and guess what...

It's saiz 26.

Great. Now if i put on weight, i can't wear my jeans.

-Dilemma-

And also. Thanks for all the birthday presents, messages and sms-es from my friends.
Well, You-know-who-you-are.
(I love you all~ Hugs)

And also special thanks to Juliet, Ivory, Nadia and Nisha,
who sent 'something' all the way to OPD for me on Sunday.
What a surprise.
You girls really made my day.
*Hugs + muaks*

Okay till the next post.
I'm getting ready for work later.

Yeap. I've been working for 7 straight days liaw.

Wad. U think government money very easy to earn har.

Luckily for one week nia.
Tomoro onwards will go back to 8am-5pm routine.

Wish me all the best ya!
;)

I'm currently dreaming to get my hands on this...

2008-11-01T04:31:00.000-07:00

I'm crazily superADORE Cardigans!

Sigh...why aren't there any topshop, Forever 21 and victoria secret's around here in kuching hor?

Yet again, even wearing these, i doubt i have the body to look nice~ hahahah!

Never alone

2008-10-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

I just find the lyrics of this song very very....very beautiful.

Wanna dedicate this song to YOU (whoever u might be), who are reading this now.

:)

Welcome changes with pleasure,

For you won't know how far it can bring you to,

or how much it can make u into.

Introducing my utmost flavor of all......

Be happy.

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May the angels protect you
Troubles neglect you
And heaven accept you when its time to go home
May you always have plenty
Your glass never empty
And know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
With every year passing
They mean more than gold
May you win but stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Chorus:
Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Well I have to be honest
As much as I wanted
I’m not gonna promise the cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

菜鸟日记

2008-10-21T03:17:00.000-07:00

很抱歉这么久都没来上来写东西了。
我是真的很不得空。

身为一个新菜鸟，我还对我的部门很生疏。
所以每天早上七点半就到医院，傍晚五点多才放工，有时六点。
工作时间长一点，就可以学多一点。
我不在乎辛苦，因为最重要的是跟得上同事们的脚步，并达到他们的期许。

我不再是学生，
而是一名药剂师。
我必需学会慎重，认真还有睿智地处理事情。
因为病人的健康不可以轻率，我们必许为我们自己所做的决定负责任。

所以上班的时候，我会打起十二分精神，一刻也不敢让自己闲着。
再加上OPD是一直的忙碌，从早上八点开到晚上十点，一天要配800 到1000个病人的药，真的真的很辛苦很累，又要时时刻刻保持冷静清醒。

上班的第一个礼拜，因为紧张，工作时手脚要快，所以我连连出错, 配到药量不对，要不然就药的dose不对，然后动作太慢，被摧。。。

有时拿到一个Prescription有10-12种药要配。一种有时是要给上百粒！又要在半个钟头里搞定！
害我手脚突然间变迟钝，跑上跑下拿药，有又要检查。。。脚痛死了！
再这样下去，我的小腿一定会练得很美。

最记得就是为一个病人配Calcitriol 60粒。
我算calcitriol的时候, 我的眼睛已经花了（因为连续几个小时都没有休息过〕
我算啊算啊。。。
ei。。。我算到哪里去了？
再算过。。。
ei。。。又算到哪里去了？
再算过。。。
同事们开始从背后摧了。算来算去有算不准。。。
我的压力突然变得好大。。。差点哭出来。。。

嘿嘿。。。不过现在已经不是一个问题了。
一天可以做到45个prescriptions. 而且是又快又准。哈哈哈！

第二个礼拜，师兄师姐们就开始教我patient counseling。因为我们不单单配药，我们也有责任教导病人如何吃药，为什么要吃这种药，要怎样保存他们的药。。。
如果病人对他们自己的病和药物有充分的了解，就会合作配合医生的指示。
这样就能药到病除咯～！

所以，我要先重新 “从头到脚”认识糖尿病和哮喘。
然后，就学怎样用Humapen来注射胰岛素(insulin)。每一种insulin都有特定的时间注射。
自己要先懂得使用，才能教导病人在家的时候正确的注射方法。
之后就学用不同的inhalers。
还有还有，要为自己的脑袋“恶补”，因为要准备答所有病人都可能发出的疑问。

唉。。。
就这样。每天早上，我都会在上班的前办个钟头，也就是七点半就到医院，去摸摸每一种药的底细，作准备。不懂的，就拼命问。
知己知彼，百战百胜！！

如今，我passed了！昨天就counsel了一个病人如何使用humapen!
哈哈哈！

这个礼拜要恶补warfarin还有其他几种药。我要再加油了！！

对了，昨天是我第一次dispensing medicine，紧张到不得了！！
刚开始手忙脚乱，说话结结巴巴。。
还是需要多几天习惯。嘿嘿。。。

今后还有很多很多的挑战。
我不怕。
离开了大学，我现在的位置才是真正考验我实力的地方。
一切都要重头开始。

我们还有很多工作以外的 “工作”。

比如，除了星期一到五，我们星期六还有来上课。而且是整天的哦。
因为我们跟医生一样，要不断地补充知识，和各部门的同事切磋和分享经验。

还有，我们要做researchs和presentations。
所以我才说一天24小时真的不够用～～

下个礼拜是我的night duty. 要工作到10pm.
后个礼拜一是Forensic exam, 我的执照就全考它了，希望通过。

一个月后，我就要和医生还有药剂师们巡病房。。。
压力大到。。。跌渣啊！！！！

不过呢，虽然辛苦，我觉得。。。

能做自己喜欢的工作真是太棒了！ :)

好了不多话了，看看我的近况吧。11/10晚上拍的。

老朋友的聚会

Ivy 和我。

我们要做干妈了～

Girls night-out. 打扮靓靓。

工作真的很劳碌，
可是很有意义。

尤其，有他。

我的时间排的满满，没有多余的。
我以为我没时间给他，
他，却仍然把我放第一位。跟以前中学的时候一样，没有怨言。

对不起，我知道你每天都为我做很多，
每天都在做让我感动的事。
我真的觉得很窝心。
每天放工后就能看到你，真的很开心。

谢谢，陪我一起努力。

Time not enough!

2008-10-15T06:57:00.000-07:00

Oh My Goodness..... @.@

How I wish there are more than 24 hours per day...

So many things waiting to be DONE!!!!

Case presentations. Patient counseling. CPD. Critical Appraisals. Workshops.
And many more.

Plus i need to have time for friends and family.

Yes of course i'm tired.
I got so tired until i blurred vision.
Until i lost my PUNCH CARD yesterday!!
Can't help to be careless.

Anyway i learned my lesson.
As a pharmacist, carelessness is forbidden.

Ngaiti.
Now i don't know which and what comes first.
Really test my management skills.

So busy until i don't realize time flies!!

No I'm not letting my blog rot
so stay with me...i'm gonna bring up some updates soon.

Till then....take care everyone!

Love ya! Muaks!!!

That's y i said my life is like a roller-coaster

2008-10-06T03:06:00.000-07:00

And it indeed was a thrilling, adrenaline-filled ride!
Just yesterday, i was like a prisoner who is waiting for jail sentence, then things suddenly turn around....

THANK GOD!!!!

JULIET AND I GOT KUCHING~~~~~!!

And today both of us are assigned first to Out-Patient Department, the busiest of all...

....for 6 weeks!!!

And we're so looking forward to the daily different challenges in SGH from now on~~

I'm the happiest girl on earth....! HAHAHAHAHA~

Thanks Gary, Sabrina, Dollie, Belinda and Christina for all the prayers, concern calls and sms-es!
Sorry for making u guys stress together with me...
Thank you for going through this with me. :)

Thanks Jev.
I'm sure gonna miss you.
Take care always ya..
Play the guitar and sing to me again in the phone ya..~

Thanks Frankie...
...for the genuine friendship love.

Thanks Onn.
Love you lots.
I think God really answers our prayers.

Thanks Juliet.
"If you go, i go"
I'll always remember your willingness to sacrifice for me.
Muaks~ Yay we're gonna be colleagues~~
I'll watch ur back and u'll watch mine, k~

Thank you, God.
I will remember my commitment to you.

When Malaysia asks u to wait, u wait endlessly. When you ask them to wait, no even one second! THIS IS MALAYSIA!

2008-10-04T02:40:00.000-07:00

My life has too many changes.

Sometimes, it just happen too fast until I simply couldn't embrace it.

Right now, my mind is like a piece of white paper.

BLANK.

I don't understand.

When i've already made up my mind to settle down for something,
life just have to stir up a hurricane, crumble up everything
and bring me back to zero.

ZERO!!!!!!!!!!

And the endless stupid waiting!!!!!!!!!

Friday, i was a happy prp (provisional registered pharmacist) who had all the plans and expectations in mind and ready to let the world see the best out of me.

24 prps are posted to sarawak.

So there will be 12 at Kuching general hospital.
6 at hospital Sibu.
Another 6 at hospital Miri.

Yeah. Fair and square.

So on the friday itself, 17 prp (including myself) reported duty.

3 prp, who are Sibu-an are posted back to Hospital Sibu. Everybody happy.

3 Prp, who are from Semanjung are posted to Kuching. Everybody happy.

Means, left 9 places in Kuching for the rest of the prps.

But then we soon realized that there were 2 IMU prps who already reported duty at Kuching general hospital 1 month ago because of JPA status.

Okay. So left 7 places.

BUT.

Soon realized again that 2 or 3 seats have to reserved for IMU prps.

So, left 4 places for 13 to 14 kuching-nites.

Thus, the chief pharmacist said that a lucky draw will be conducted and the lucky ones will be thrown to Miri and Sibu. For this year, Miri stands a very high chance.

Okay lar. Everybody also agreed. Fair and square mar...what to do?
U think i'm the only one who study pharmacy mer?
Last year only got 7 prp reported duty.
This year got 24 arrrr...no kidding man....

BUT.

Chief pharmacist said that lucky draw can only be conducted on monday (6 Oct) because all the pangkat tinggi punya pharmacist officers are holiday-ing due to hari raya.

So we will get our final posting on monday.

Wait wait. Story haven't ended yet.
The best part is...

IF YOU ARE LUCKY TO BE POSTED TO MIRI,
YOU HAVE TO REPORT DUTY ON THE NEXT DAY AT THAT HOSPITAL.

MEANS ONCE I KNOW WHERE I'M POSTED, I HAVE ONE AFTERNOON TO "DA-PAO" MY STUFFS AND BOOK MY AIR-TICKET TO FLY STRAIGHT AWAY TO MIRI AT NIGHT.

EI SIAW BO I TELL YOU?!?!?!?!?!

They don't even let us to have time to find accomodation and transport!

Have to work on tuesday 8am sharp somemore!!!!

STRESS ARRRRRR....

where got like that one!!!!!! #@$%*&

NOW WHAT?

I ALSO DON'T KNOW LAR.

I'VE NEVER BEEN TO MIRI.

I DON'T KNOW ANYBODY THERE TOO.

WHERE AM I GOING TO SLEEP THAT NIGHT??!?!?!?!

HOW AM I GOING TO SAY FAREWELLS TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS?!?!?!?!

ASK A GIRL CARRY ALL HER STUFFS TO TRAVEL IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.

THIS IS SOMETHING THAT ONLY HAPPENS IN MALAYSIA.

Arrest me if u want, ISA!

First day of work!

2008-10-02T21:15:00.000-07:00

期待已久的日子终于到了!!

大头虾的我以后要怎样在大医院混日子...~~??

庞大的责任...我这只菜鸟能把工作做好吗?????

唉哟....我要晕了....

Updates

2008-09-29T07:18:00.000-07:00

You guys still remember this advertisement?

I'll never forget how i nearly laughed my head off.

Paisei lar....very lazy to blog these days...

BLAME it on the weather, okay!
It's so HOT to the extent i don't even want to go out from the house.
This month's electric bill sure increase one because can't help to turn on the air-conditioner all the time.

Okay. Updates. In this post, i just wanted to be open and share my heart.
I don't care who are my readers.
I write of what my heart conveys.
If you're not interested, you can just jump out from this window.
Because right now, I'm doing this for myself and for my friends who care for me. :)

Let's see...

I'm kinda busy lately because of the posting matters.
Yeah, i'm posted back to sarawak.
Meaning Penang and I are not fated together after all. *sob sob*
(P/s: Goodbye shopping paradise...)

I got some government documents to settle lar...
Phone calls to make lar...

And the worst of all...
I NEED TO STUDY AGAIN~!!!

(So mafan...)
Since pharmacy is a life-long learning type of career, we need to learn independently about the latest drugs, diseases, and drug therapy to remain competent,
NEVER END UNTIL RETIREMENT.

I need to sit for a forensic exam to approve me for a license.
And also an oral counseling test to allow your participation in the wards.

One of the greatest expectations i wished to achieve in my career is to become a clinical pharmacist in paediatric wards.

Yeah...to take care of sick children.
I want to do more than just contributing my pharmaceutical knowledge...

I want...and i hope to bring healing through Jesus to their broken hearts, which have grown weary during the countless battles with their sickness.

To cheer them up. Even in wards, there's love and hope.

Anyway, its just a dream.
Don't know whether can achieve or not.
But then, I will GAMBATE to be there~
One day~~ ;)

Be strong. Take on changes in life because life always change. Embrace changes.
-Gary-

Thanks bro. Love ya.

I'm very very touched to hear from some of gepc members.

Guys, your encouragements came just on time.
I'm really blessed to have you all in my life.

And i'm proud to have the opportunity to serve God with you all in gepc.
It's the greatest experience that i'm gonna treasure for life.
I wouldn't want to trade it with anything God can offer me.
I love you all.

2 years spent in GEPC.
I was a back-up vocalist,
a worship leader,
a cell group leader,
a praying warrior, and
a pre-missionary.

I was picked up by GEPC when i was in my darkest period, where God show me the greatest things of one could ever known and gave me hope and strength to embrace future.

When i was all out of love, and hands are so far to reach,
God came and healed me, and
You all were there to lift me up back to my feet.
Since then, i have a meaning, a purpose to live for.

I used to label myself with what other ppl think of me.
i was unhappy and depressed.

God, through GEPC taught me that a person's value is not determined by the people around you.

You live up to your own expectations.
The question is, how you set your expectations?
On the world?
or God?

Each and everyone of us are precious for who we are.

I'll never forget what God said to me.
"I've created you and brought you to earth with full confidence and love,
so why are u still look down on yourself? You are just perfect of who you are."

These magic words, set me free.

GEPC means a lot to me.
If possible, I really wished i don't have to come back to kuching.

I feel trapped back at my own hometown.
Why?
Because...

I'm afraid to start all over again.
To find a new church.
To find a new group of brothers and sisters.
To have a bond with the new pastors.

Everything's just too new.
I can't find a place to fit in.

On the other hand,
I had a childhood sweatheart, whom i have been rejecting all these years.
I'm confused.
I don't want to commit into a relationship yet.

If possible, i don't want to come back to face all these.

But, God just did.
He sent me back.

Is this the answer that i've been praying for?

In this 5 months, i was struggling, confused and depressed.

I even hoped that...how i wish i'm not a christian....
Then i don't have to be so stress with all these.

Jacob is right.
It is so hard to live your faith and to live for God in a surrounding where people around you don't live that way.

Sigh.

I admit too.

He has been special to me, as a friend always been there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on,
who always know what i'm thinking, and who always know my needs.

After ten years, we're still bonded closely with each other.
We understands each other the most.
Whenever there are drastic happenings in our lives, we would only want to share with each other.
I don't know how to explain this, its a sense of belonging we found in each other.

Yet, we chose to carry on in the form of friendship.

And that is why i don't want to come back.
Because i know...when distance is out of the way...emotions will go out of control...
And i was right.
It happened.

Everytime i rejected and pushed him away,
I felt my heart was ripped open alive.
And i kept asking..."God, how many times you want me to do this?"

Is this the answer i've been praying for?

Lately, i've been spending time with God alone.
I think i know what God wants now.

He wanted me to face my greatest fears and desires,
and to learn how to live my faith when surroundings are different,
and how to surrender my desire to honor Him.

Just like Abraham, who left his homeland to a foreign land.
Just like Daniel, who was dragged away from his country to babylon.
Just like Mary Magdalene, to give up her desire for Jesus.

God, is indeed a great teacher of life.

I will pull myself together and re-commit myself into a church again.
I have scheduled an appointment to talk with my church pastor.
By Faith, i know God will guide my footsteps into His glorious plan.

About my relationship, God has been working on it too.
But still, it has been the greatest struggle to me.
I don't know how much longer i can hold on.

After all, I'm just a human being, who is deeply in love.
I'm terribly weak in this area.

So please brothers and sisters, pray for me.

God bless.

归属...

2008-09-25T06:20:00.000-07:00

我的天空放晴了

脸上有了释怀的笑容了

是时候让我的“心”停止在外排徊，
回去一直等它回来的人的身边。

不过呢，我多带了一个人回来... 嘻嘻

Where You are is where I belong...

2008-09-25T05:41:00.000-07:00

Thanks Sabrina and Jev for the spiritual supports and love.
I really felt encouraged.
Like being saved from drowning in the quicksand...

True.
It doesn't matter whether I'm in kl or kuching.
What matters the most is the heart that would always run to God.

No matter where I am, or what a mess i'd made,
I'll never be too far gone.

Where I am, is the platform that God has built for me.

It's all coming back to me now...

I worship you, my Lord in every moment of my life.
God, my joy and delight. Amen.

Verse 1
C                         Am
There is no height or depth; neither life nor death
    G                   F
That can take me from all that I find
           C
Here now in Your glory Lord


Verse 2
C                        Am
No others powers or love; The things of now or to come
G                 F
There's nothing on earth in this life
        C
That could ever separate us Lord


Pre-chorus
Am               G
Your love is never ending
       F
To Your hands we surrender
 C             G/B   Am
Where all our sins are washed away

             G
Your grace beyond reason
         F
Has paid for our freedom
 Am     G
We're made alive in you


Chorus
    C                                   G
We run to Your throne where we belong
          F                           C
Every heart will sing that JESUS is Lord
Casting all else aside
         G
For the joy of our Christ
         F
Let Your glory fall
                 C
Our hearts are filled with your fire

When rain keeps me at home....

2008-09-21T23:43:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah....

Remember i mentioned before that i have both good news and bad news?

Bad news first ya...

I'm not going to Penang anymore.
Apparently Hospital Pulau Pinang has no more vacancies even local penang people could not get it.

Good news will be....
Most probably i'm going to stuck here in kuching.
(Honestly, it doesn't sound good to me)

So as a conclusion...

I'm gonna be trapped forever at home as mommy's little girl...

Okay...BAD NEWS!!!!!!

P/s: It's not exactly what i want...but like i say earlier...
If this is what God thinks best for me,
Then i will make the best out of it.

No more looking back at the past but move forward with courage.

What's the big deal right?
Just need a little changes and adjustments.
The truth is, we cannot expect things to be the same anymore.

hm....on the bright side...
I can save a lot of money staying at home~~
Like RM2000 at least? ;)

I'm in....

2008-09-19T09:22:00.000-07:00

I know u guys must be wondering what was i been doing for the past 7 or 8 days.

Well, I finally sort things out a little...erm....a lot actually...
I finally know what i want, where should i go and how am i going to get there.

I still feel trapped with kuching but now i can breathe...
knowing with full affirmation that I'm not alone

And...
Though my life is entering a new phase with unknown challenges ahead,
I'm sure i can make it through again.

Next, I got my prayers answered.

Then, Good news and bad news came along together.

I also don't know whether should be happy or not.
Anyway, this is life...right?

Sometimes u can make a difference in your life...
but sometimes...
You're just not the boss to have things go on the way you want it.

At this moment, forgive me that i don't have the mood to write in details about my recent stuffs.

Yet, i would like to share with you all a song that i love playing with my guitar over and over again...

A classic which i will adore forever.

A heart-captivating oldie...

"Can't help falling in love with you"

C    G   Am        F    C    G7
Wise men say, only fools rush in
F   G7    Am       Dm       C    G7   C
But  I  can't help falling in love with you
C     G  Am       F     C    G7
Shall I  stay, would it be a sin
F    G7    C     Dm         C    G7   C
If I  can't help falling in love with you



Em          Am     Em           Am
Like a river flows surely to the sea
Em          Am      A7         Dm     G7
Darling so it goes, some things are meant to be


C    Em  Am            F    C    G7
Take my  hand, take my whole life too
  F  G7    C      Dm         C    G7    C
For I can't help  falling in love whith you

2008-09-18T23:22:00.000-07:00

Yeah yeah... I'll post something soon....like tomorrow...ok~

Ya i miss you all too

;)

The Fern and the bamboo

2008-09-10T07:30:00.000-07:00

One day I decided to quit..
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality....
I wanted to quit my life.

I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said.
"Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me.
"Look around", He said.
"Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds,
I took very good care of them.
I gave them light.
I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.
Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In the second year the fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.
But I did not quit on the bamboo.

In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.
But I would not quit.

The same in year four.

Then in the fifth year, a tiny sprout emerged from the earth.
Compared to the fern, it was seemingly small and insignificant.

But just six months later, the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots.

Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.

I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,
you have actually been growing roots?

I would not quit on the bamboo.

I will never quit on you."

"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.

"The bamboo had a different purpose than the fern.
Yet they both make the forest beautiful."

"Your time will come", God said to me.

"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said,
"Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest, realizing that...

God will never give up on me.
And He will never give up on you.

Never regret a day in your life.

Good days give you happiness;
Bad days give you experiences;

both are essential to life.

-Author Unknown-

Dine @ Chilis

2008-09-09T23:03:00.000-07:00

After my graduation ceremony at Penang, Uncle Martin brought us to Chilis for dinner.

Daryl, my cuz once told me that there are 4 must-visit restaurants which serve great food.
Expensive but you won't gonna regret it.

TGI Fridays
Chilis
Shogun
Italianese

So far I haven't been to Italianese.
I'm a pasta-lover, so very looking forward to step into the restaurant one day~ Hehe.

- The appetizer -

Tripple Dippers

Classic Nachos

These 2 appetizers are in very big portion.
Luckily there were 6 of us to share.
Yet, it's very very filling...

- Main Course -

Monterey chicken

Grilled Chicken

Lamb shoulders

Firecracker fish fillet

Oh this is the best
Lamb Shank!

Fire chicken and Shrimps

A kind of Fajita.
Taste real good.

Mushroom Jack

It came with the sauces, spices and some vegetables.

Also together with popia kind of bread.

Yeah...Mushroom Jack....Tada~~

;)

Have a nice day, peeps!

My sis

2008-09-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

20 years ago, my house welcomed a little monster....

She got many nick names lor....

little dragon girl
Ah ning Tan
BP station
BB tan
etc etc...

Sometimes she acts as if she's older than me.

Yeah...my only sibling.

Phoebe Tan

I'm always amazed by how she have grown to be a lady who knows how to take care of herself.
She's independent, strong, outgoing, beautiful and smart.

I got to admit.
She takes care of me like i'm her younger sister.
I'm proud of what she has become.

At her age, she has faced many situations even grown ups can't afford to go through it.
But she survived.
I'm glad God did not take her away from us.
I'll never be strong enough to lose her.

We grew up together.
We shared things together.
We fought with each other.
We cried together.
We secretly planned things behind our parent's back.
We cover for each other.

That's the priviledge of a sibling who would do all these things for you.

Nothing on earth has the power to separate this.

Fortunate or not, she's the only person in this world who calls me "jie jie"
(though she hasn't address me that way since she entered primary school)

You'll always be a part of my success.

To my sis.

Okay. If you want to get even with me,
You can do the same thing in ur blog too.
But do not post ugly pictures of me.
Don't start a war with me, sister!

Y waste my time?

2008-09-01T02:07:00.000-07:00

If some1 u love doesn't have the thought of spending the rest of his life with you...
would you consider a relationship with him?
OR go paktoh with some1 whom you can't see a future with him?

Maybe you'll say..."just paktoh and see how la"

I'll say....Y waste my time?

Answer me if you can...Y ppl want to paktoh?

You paktoh with the person u love, right?
The person whom you think u wanna live forever with, right?
The person whom u want to spend the rest of your live is some1 whom u consider as future husband or wife, right????

If it's not for that purpose. Just merely kill time or enjoy being love...
"see how lor...i love him/her bor...i want to be with him/her....but dunnoe can go that far or not...see how la....If we can be together, then continue lor...if cannot....then dun wan lor..."

SELFISH!!!!!

I don't give a damn about this excuse.

Choosing someone to be ur bf/gf is like buying saham with your hard earn money...
Don't tell me you don't 'sayang' your sweat and blood $$ lo

Some ppl invest a little...
Some ppl invest everything...

How can you be so sure that the saham is sure win?
What if somebody invest his/her everything on it....and LOSE?
Then...GG lor...

You think this type of money very easy to replenish ar?

You got to work all over again and simpan $$ so that you can invest again okay.
Think so easy?

Maybe u think...."Its his/her choice ma...cannot blame ppl..."
Yeah right... like you didn't make him/her felt that the saham is worth the whole-hearted investment...
Besides, how many times one can make that kind of investments ar?

So, my point is....do investments wisely.
It's all or nothing.
If you have already been through a broken relationship,
then you should learn.
Be smart okay.

Girls, your money is TIME.
Please. If that guy doesn't worth your time, or he doesn't love you as much as you do.
Forget it, honey.
Because nobody will pity you if you're broke.

Guys, please be a bit more responsible.
If there's a girl who is showing interest in you,
please don't be a jerk by accepting her love if you're just giving it a shot and then called it off as fast as you flush the toilet.
Don't waste her time.

Don't write cheques with your mouth if you can't cash it.

Don't say "I'll love you forever" because you don't even know what's gonna happen tomorrow so how can you be so sure you still gonna love him/her no matter what happens?

In the end, either one or both will suffer terrible devastating pain.

"You lied. You lied. You said that you would love me forever."
"I'm sorry. Things changed."

Now, that's the result when both of you are not sure of the direction or the purpose of the relationship!!
I leave the question to you. If you ever want to be in a relationship with a man/woman, what's the purpose?
Think about it.

If you're not sure.
Easy.
Start off by being just friends. Good friends. Best friends.
In that case, you'll have plenty of time to know each other better, evaluate and judge whether he/she is qualified to be ur bf/gf.

So kin tio labeling him/her as bf or gf is as stupid as dining at TGI friday with RM30 in your pocket.
You can't pay how much the consequences are going to cost you.

My point is...ppl won't get hurt with false hopes or expectations when you make ur stand clear.
"Let's be friends first. And see how things can bring us."

So that is why...I don't want to paktoh yet.
I do investments carefully. (Otherwise i wouldn't have stayed single for the past 2 years)
I don't want to lose the opportunities of knowing great guys who would put me first before anything...who put GOD before me.
I don't want to be in a relationship if i'm not ready for it.

我不追求爱情的刺激。
响往的是平平静静的细水长流。

一个人的感情是很珍贵的，不要轻易让人糟蹋。
最好的人是值得你耐心的去等待。

Ya la ya la...我很难追...
Ya la ya l...I am kolot.... 吹啊? >.<

Because i will only waste my time on somebody who deserves it.

(feels so good after meluahkan all the perasan terpendam)

Malaysianism

2008-08-30T03:59:00.000-07:00

Ya la hor....Who am i kidding with?

Everyone knows that there's a kind of people who loves to eat until don't know their limits...

When other people stomach pain want to go toilet...they cannot....have to wait.

Y? Because toilet already occupied ma by that kind of people lor.

Because...only them... at this time baru complain constipation and couldn't get a shit out.

Yeah...take your time....

Ya ya....Happy Merdeka.

Hurray.

The Pearl of the Orient (Part 2)

2008-08-28T22:27:00.000-07:00

During my stay in Penang, my mum's best friend got us a suite at Gurney hotel.
It's awesomely super high class okay.

And the best part was...it costed us RM50 per night~~~!

Well apparently mum's best friend has a big face that the hotel gave her a special offer.

Wala....i present to you a suite with 2 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 1 living room and incredibly awesome views.

The master bedroom.

Along with it, the bathroom.

Check out the bathtub!! Got spa one okay~~

When you're 'spa'ing yourself in the bathtub....you get to enjoy the view~~
Life....Oh life~~oh Life~~~

Yeap. Time for beauty SPA.

Hehe~~ Enjoy enjoy~~

This bedroom is for me and my sis.

Our bathroom.

Oh yeah....got a mini kitchen somemore....

Besides the fridge is a washing machine...
Can u believe that?
They actually providing free laundry service~~~
(okay now Rach starts to sound like she's from some ulu place)

The living room.
Mum and Dad were excited like kids too.
We're so in love with the suite.

Oh oh....i almost forgot.
An ironing board~~~
So cute!!

The views from top were so fascinating.
No wonder people like to live in condominiums.

I'm loving it.

Yeah probably i'll just marry a rich fella and tipu him to get me a condo.

(just kidding okay)

Check out the swimming pool from the hotel next door.

I wonder how my life would be if i'm posted to Penang....

I love the city, the food, the shopping malls...but...
will i be happy...?
My future....a question....

Well in another way, that's what makes the unknown exciting.
Unknown things for you to look foward to, to hope for and to dream of....

The point is...never give up living your dream...no matter where you are or where you come from...
You can always make the best out of yourself as long you have faith.

Appearances don't matter.
It depends on how u look at it.

No matter what life has got for you ahead,
It's the attitude you choose to face it.

Then, it can a whole lot easier or a hell lot harder...

What matters most is how you see yourself.

(p/s: Credits go to my sister since most of the pictures are taken with her camera. Have a nice day, everyone!)

I'll never walk alone

2008-08-26T01:09:00.000-07:00

Isaiah 42:16, 43:18-19

The Lord says,

"Then I will lead the blind along a way they never knew;
I will guide them along paths they have not known.
I will make the darkness become light for them, and the rough ground smooth.

These are the things i will do; I will not leave my people."

"Forget what happened before, and do not think about the past.
Look at the new thing I am going to do. It is already happening.
Don't you see it?
I will make a road in the desert and rivers in te dry land."

God, I thank you for loving a sinner like me.
Your words always bring comfort and peace into my heart.
Though i'm struggling in the dark, You shall be my light.
You alone understands my pain of letting go and feel my tears...
You never forsake me from the day you called me into your kingdom.
Because of you, I can stand up again and have the strength to continue hoping....

Bad things will turn out good,
the ugly will turn out beautiful,
hurts will turn out smiles.

Guide me back to you again...
Amen.

Latest Camwhoreness

2008-08-24T23:17:00.000-07:00

I'm going crazy soon...

I need some doses of happy moments with my friends.
That would keep me from saturated by unnecessary emotions.

Snap out of it, Rach!!

*breathe*

I was so happy back then...

....to be away from kuching....
....to be away from some1...

Leave me.
I just want to be free and do wadever i want....

Or pose however i like...

...wherever i like...

I miss them so much...

My appetite grow as long i'm with her...
(now that explains why my weight drops from 54 to 48kg since i came back to kch)

I am beautiful...
...no matter what they say...

...words can't bring me down.

You are beautiful....with the right size, shape and height....

You are who you are.

Someone crowned her as a "sexy iguana".
A name like no other name...

Maybe i should take up photography...

...maybe not.

Paris Hilton wannabe...

Though Paris's a bimbo. She is happy with her life.
No matter how the papers say...

I wanna go shopping...

Yeah....i'm being silly again...

我和他的故事

2008-08-23T07:22:00.000-07:00

前天晚上我的知心朋友之一，Frankie告诉我说。。。

“能够遇到你爱他而他也爱你的人是难得的。要好好把握。”

我笑了一下。

我第一个想到的就是 “他”。
只可惜我们相遇太早。
不过，至少我们没有错过刻骨铭心的曾经。:)

每当有人问起我的恋爱故事，我都会自豪的说。。。

“曾经有一个男生义无反顾地为我付出。
他当我是他生活的中心，是他生命的全部。
爱我更胜过他自己。”

是真的。
在我的一生里，能把我捧在手心里疼着宠着的男生。。。全世界也只有“他”了。

我很感谢他。。。
一个女生能够这样被一个男生无怨无悔地爱过。。。
我是幸运的。

可惜。错的时间，遇上对的人。。。是一声叹息。

听说爱情回来过

2008-08-23T06:32:00.000-07:00

在朋友那儿听说痴心的你曾经回来过
想请他替我向你问候
只为了怕见了说不出口

你对以往的感触还多不多
曾让我心碎的你
我依然深爱著

在朋友那儿听说痴心的你曾找过我
我要他帮我对你隐瞒
只是怕见了面会更难过

我对以往的感触还那么多
曾给我幸福的你
我依然深爱著

有一种想见不能见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中

这一种想见不敢见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你把你放在我心中

对你的声音你的影你的手我发誓说我没有忘记过
而关于你选择了现在的她
我只能说我有些难过
我也真心真意的等过

有一种想见不能见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中

这一种想见不敢见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓
我却只能把你把你放在我心中

（放手吧，我不适合你的。让我们结束掉这十年的牵绊吧。。。〕

The Pearl of the Orient (Part 1)

2008-08-22T21:13:00.000-07:00

I'm not that worry anymore if i'm posted to Penang island.
It's a great place to live and work.
A beautiful city in which i don't mind staying for long-term.

Compared to Kuching, Penang island is way much developed.

DAP rules the place.
So its actually a better place for chinese to live, not like kuching where chinese are "refrained" from doing many things (Talk about freedom...yada yada).

I'm not good in writing tourism journals so let the pictures do the talking.

Day view from my hotel room.

Evening view.

Night view.

Isn't it just spectacular?
Well, it would be best if they could clean up the waters a little.
I mean seriously....so busuk until ur hair can smell.

I LOVE the food. Excellent destination for food-lovers.

The dishes are unique, cheap, delicious and strongly-featured.

Oh...You'll just enjoy eating in Penang.
(I'll post up the food pictures in the next entry)

It has all the great social places for working adults to hang out.

Oh...this is my favourite part....
SHOPPING!!!!
Once again, i have proven myself to be a shopaholic.
Blame it on Penang okay...
Who ask Penang to be a shopping paradise?!
Who can resist the modern shopping malls and unique fashion?!?!

So happy to bring back many nice garments that are so worth the money....
Except one more piece left in Forever 21 at Queensbay mall.

I was carrying big bags small bags mar...So i thought to myself...
"Don't buy liaw la...enough for the day"

I regretted as soon as i gone back to the hotel.

#$%$!@#%

The outlet is so much bigger than the one in 1Utama.
And it has the fashion that you can't find in KL or Kuching.

Sigh...xin Tung...

Fight brightly in a dark war (明争暗斗〕

2008-08-20T01:15:00.000-07:00

When i was 16, I heard my calling....to make pharmacy as my lifelong career.
And I'd been striving real hard ever since to get there.
2 years of F6 and 4 years pursuing my degree.

No regrets.
But why pharmacy?
Actually i wanted to study medicine and become a doctor but i gave up the idea soon enough. 'Cause my blood pressure drops and my knees tremble at the sight of syringes and needles.
So becoming a nurse or doctor was way out from the options.

Anyway, being a pharmacist ain't that bad.
Basically, we share equal responsibility with the doctors and nurses in the healthcare settings.

".......I will consider the welfare of humanity and relief of all human suffering through optimal drug therapy and the best pharmaceutical care...."

"........I will keep abreast of developments and the latest pharmaceutical care to assure the best care to the community and other healthcare providers....."

See what i mean?
We also got take oath okay.
Anyway, things are 'slightly' different in Malaysia.
While pharmacists in overseas are gaining equal status as the doctors,
local pharmacists here have much more to catch up....

You see, there is a war going on behind the curtains of all hospitals...
Doctors....they think they are "Gods".
Well no offense, because I'm not referring to all doctors.

For example Gary, a future doctor

who is undeniably kind-hearted, gentle, humble and cute.
(Can't believe i just said that)

Each time we meet, we love 'CRUSH'ing each other.

Right or not? ;)

Generally (which happens in most cases) when you speak to a doctor...
you gotta be very careful of what you gonna say...
Or else... You will lost whatever you have build up so far.

You gotta be smart.
And readily "armed" with knowledge.
Eventhough you're just at student, they will also grab the chances whenever they can to test your knowledge so that they can satisfy their egoism.

Let me tell you a real life story so that you can understand better.
When i was a second year student,
my class organized a 3 day public health screening campaign at Sunway pyramid.
I was assigned to assist Sabrina in her exhibition department where we would give health counselings and advices.
I was also given the opportunity to check the blood pressure for patients.

So there i was...on duty in the blood pressure screening section.
It was almost time for us to end the campaign for the day.

Manatahu tiba-tiba got 5 doctors came to my booth,
and one of them who was a cardiologist, demanded me to check his blood pressure.
They were from India and came to Malaysia for vacation.
He was 55 and above (i think).

You can imagine how stress i was back then.
Let me show you how the conversation went. (If that's what i remember)

-------------------ROUND 1-------------------

Doctor: I'm a doctor. And I'm in a hurry. So can you please check my blood pressure now. Do it fast.

Rachel: Yes Sir, yes sir. (After 2 times of measuring)

Rachel: Sir, your blood pressure is 190/100mmHg. Its highly dangerous for your age. Have you been taking your medication daily?

Doctor: I did not take while in Malaysia.

Rachel: Sir, you're a doctor. You should know better than me that hypertension must be controlled by medication as directed. One missed dose can cause a serious consequence.

Doctor. I know i know. I'm a doctor. I know exactly what to do.

Rachel:*occupational smiling* (Fine. Suit yourself)

Doctor: So what advices can you give me?

Rachel: (Oh...test me ar) Well, you should watch out your diet, such as avoiding from high cholesterol foods, caffeine and salty foods. Do exercises regularly to reduce weight, no smoking and eat more vegetables and fruits. Most importantly, you must adhere to your medication daily. Because if you don't, your blood pressure may rebound and....

Doctor: I know i know. I know what to do.

Rachel:*occupational smiling* (Fine. Suit yourself)

-----------------ROUND 2-----------------

Doctor: I want to ask a question. Since i'm hypertensive, can i have sex?

Rachel: *Smile paused for 5 seconds*

Rachel: Well....At your age, i think its okay.

Doctor: Then how many times do you recommend?

Rachel:....once per day should be just fine...

Doctor: Why?

Rachel: Because.... it's part of exercising your heart and improve your blood circulation. But be careful don't go over the limits because your blood pressure might fluctuate due to mood and hormonal changes... (Yea yea...I know i crapped...)

Doctor: *smile cheekily and nodding*

(wadever...)

------------------ROUND 3----------------

Doctor: I would like you to check my pulse.

Rachel: *Occupational smile* Yes sure.

(I took his right wrist, felt his artery and start counting....)

(....after 10-20 seconds, guess what he did? He took my stethoscope and start listening to his own heart beat.)

Rachel: (After 1 minute) Sir, your pulse is 60bpm.

Doctor: 63. It's 63.

Rachel: oh okay. *smiling* (Then ask me to check for what ler?!?!)

*Then he left after satisfying his egoism.*

Yeah...I can't wait for work.

'Wall-E' fever

2008-08-19T22:40:00.000-07:00

Wall-E has all what it takes to be a perfect boyfriend.

So sweet, so cute and so romantic!!!

It's going to be one of my favorite movie collection.
You really have got to watch this!
Good job, Pixar!

When you fall in love,
a few seduction lessons are required...

Lesson 1: Entertain her
Lesson 2: Impress her
Lesson 3: Protect her
Lesson 4: Be patient
Lesson 5: Make her laugh

Wall-E Loves Eve!

*Awwwwwwww*

Convocation @ USM

2008-08-17T01:29:00.000-07:00

First of all, i want to thank GOD for making my dream come true.
And how He accompanied me to go through the fire of hard times during my University years. With His unfailing love and confidence in me, i managed to overcome many challenges, received more than i can ever imagine, and become more than I can be.

If weren't for Him, I can never come this far. I'm proud to say that He is my God and my rock on which i can stand forever. You can trust him with your future.

At least, He provides me a career of which i no need to worry about being low paid. Hehe. ;)

Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

To be precise, i studied USM pharmacy bachelor degree at UCSI. It's actually a 4+0 twinning programme. So that explains why my convocation in USM.

...when i saw the pharmacy students who studied at USM...
I have this funny comparison... We studied the same course but different universities. Like siblings with same father but different mothers (同父异母).

Thanks Mum and Dad for the roses. And also your endless supports and confidence in your daughter. I'm glad that i didn't fail your expectations.

It's like LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.
I don't care, any guy who wants to date me or my future boyfriend MUST buy me white roses on Valentine's day, anniversary, birthdays, and watever-day which signifies LOVE. AHAHAHAHA

Someone...erm...who is special to me surprises me with this bear. *wink wink*
Thank you, i love it very much.

This is my MOST FAVORITE Chocolate in the world.
After u taste this, Ferrero Rocher is nothing.
You can't get it anywhere in kuching.
It's hard to find even in KL.

Thanks, Sis.

Unspeakable satisfaction as it melts in your mouth...

Okay. Now let the pictures do the talking. Enjoy~~~

With Family.

With friends and coursemates

With BFF

With Sisters

With SuperMums and Dads

It was an awesome day for us.
I can't believe i finally made it!

Friends, i wish u all the best embarking a new journey after graduation.
I shall miss you all.

Oh yea.
Dear friends (you know who you are), thanks for all the sms-es, wishes and blessings.
Love you!!!

Here, i just wanna share the joy and blessings with you all.
In everything you do, just BELIEVE in yourself. Then, you shall SOAR high like an eagle.

*muaks*

Check this out!

2008-08-16T23:36:00.000-07:00

张靓颖 Jane Zhang 新不了情(New Endless Love) MV

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝

这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

Ngaiti....

Melt or not?
Melt or not?!?!?!?!

*PENGSAN*

Tons of happiness!

2008-08-15T09:47:00.001-07:00

I'm back~

And I wanna share with you....

the Good Luck,Blessings, Hopes, Wishes and Happiness i collected from the convo~~~

Have a great weekend ahead! ;)

Don't worry, i will blog soon.....PICTURES!!

~Happy Happy Happy~

See ya peeps~

2008-08-11T00:08:00.000-07:00

I'm flying to penang tonight!

I AM GRADUATING!

I'll be back with lots of convo pics...
So stay with me!

*Muaks*

爱，不后悔

2008-08-08T09:15:00.000-07:00

F，我知道你的努力，
也看到了你的用心。

这是写给你的。

记得有一个人祝福你快乐喔。。。

当我们没有我们所爱的东西时，
我们必须爱我们现在拥有的东西。
最重要的是疼惜自己。
这是只有“自己”才能作得到。

即然爱无法随心所欲，
为何不从那窒息的情爱走出来？
呼吸一下清新的空气，想一想，多久没闻到自由？
好好珍惜身旁每个可以爱的东西。

做爱的主人，
而不是爱的奴隶。

虽然。。。

曾经因为感情受了伤，
曾经不惜一切付出过，
曾经想追求一份稳定感情，

曾经的曾经，
现在又如何呢？

也许曾经用错情，也许曾经表错意，也许曾经被欺骗，

然而曾经已是曾经，
所以不必追忆，也不必自怜，而是继续勇敢去爱。

不后悔，绝不。
至少我是这样。

就算我有太多太多伤痛的曾经，
我仍然感谢神。。。
因我没有错过爱他的机会。

一切都变得美丽了。

过程已是一种快乐了。 :)

The lesson of humility

2008-08-07T05:14:00.000-07:00

一山还有一山高，强中自有强中手

English translation (from the above chinese saying):

There will always be a stronger than the strongest
A mountain higher than the highest

(Not bad ler my england)

Always be my baby

2008-08-04T08:36:00.000-07:00

We were as one babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine.

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly

Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die, no...

You'll always be a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby.

And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me.

Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby.

I ain't gonna cry, no...

And I won't beg you to stay

If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way

But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe

Our love will never end, no...

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on
Time cant erase a feeling this strong

No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darlin cause you'll always be my baby...

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh

I know that, you'll be right back
Ooooh! baby believe me it's only a matter of time

You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling cause you'll always...

be my...my baby....

Always

Prom nite 08

2008-07-30T20:53:00.000-07:00

Believe me, i don't usually wear like this...

Because the theme was "HAWAII NIGHT"

So i dressed myself like a gypsy girl, with the very limited clothes i could find from my KL wardrobe so that i did not have to go shopping...Hehe...
And also with a lot of encouragements...

It was awesome. Everyone was in their best.

Coursemates

The heat was further turned on by the wonderful performances prepared by the committee.

Sabrina and I performed two songs.
"You raise me up"
"Stand by me"

The crowd went wild.

Our lecturers couldn't be cuter. They also sang us songs, which we could hardly hear what they're singing... -_-'''

Great food. Hilarious games.
N times of photo-shooting session.

University life has never been so cool if weren't for all of you.
My adorable coursemates and lecturers.
Man, i really feel like going back to school...

Too bad i didn't have all the photos with me.
So I'll post what I have in my camera.

So Christina, don't always complain ya...
I also will post nice pictures once in a while one, ok

Act cute.

He was nominated as the most "Macho" guy in class.
Hm...8/10 ;)

The prom night has marked a perfect full stop for my university life.
It shaped, molded and trained me to become what i am today.
Coursemates, friends, housemates...
I miss you all.
Take care alright?

Though we're heading to a different altitude of life,
I believe it shall be a new begining for all of us to search the purposes of our lives.
And the memories will be our most precious treasures.

With lots of love.

Blah-ing

2008-07-28T20:56:00.000-07:00

I had spent the most hectic weekeend. But i appreciate it very much.

Thanks girls. :)

After N times of watching this...

...I'm still having goosebumps...

I've always love Mariah Carey's version of "Always be my baby",

But David Cook is really amazing.

So original.

I just couldn't get the song out of my mind.

*melt melt melt melt*

Still melt... *hold breath*

Rach is now learning how to play like this guy bertungkus-lumus.

Self-medicating

2008-07-23T23:58:00.000-07:00

Chief complain:
My nose is soaked with mucous

Symptoms:
Runny nose. Sneezing.

Signs:
Not significant.

Duration:
2 days

Severity level:
mild

Pre-diagnosis:
Nasal congestion, aka Flu

Pharmaceutical care plan:
1. Drink sufficient water
2. Take Vitamin C
3. Rest well
4. Off the air-cons.
5. Take OTC (Over the counter) product if symptoms persist and severed.

Recommendations:
Cetrizet D. 1 tablet OD x 3 days

Cetrizet D. Extended release tablet comprising of
Cetirizine hydrochloride 5mg and
Pseudoephedrine Hydrochloride 120mg.

Okay. Let me explain in layman.

Histamine is one of the chemical compound in our nose.
Once infected, our nose will secrete a whole bunch of them into the blood and
cause the blood vessel to get swollen.
This is why our nose will turn red.
It will release mucous abundantly so that you can't breathe with your nostrils.
Cetirizine is an antihistamine.
It helped to stop the action of histamine and
relieve the symptoms like runny nose and sneezing.

Pseudoephedrine is vasoconstrictor, which means
it help to shrink the blood vessels in the nose so as to reduce the overflowing mucous,
clear the path so that you can breathe better.

Hah~~ Luckily i haven't forget everything back in class!
I'm a confirmed-to-be pharmacist!
All ready for work.

Oh yeah...i'm not encouraging the public to self medication okay.
Anything serious got to do with your health, go to your doctors or pharmacist. Hehe.

Ah...stupid nose....
*sneeze*

我的帅徒弟~~~

2008-07-22T07:48:00.000-07:00

在这里, 美女师父恭祝你。。。

生日快乐！

想不到我还有这招吧~？;)

愿所有的快乐，所有的幸福，所有的温馨，所有的好运永远围绕在你身边！

Happy Birthday!

p/s: No. He is not my bf. :P

McD情缘

2008-07-18T21:00:00.001-07:00

Okay. Enough of the emo stuffs.
Now here's something to cheer me up. And i hope you all will too.

But before i proceed, i want to state it clear that i am not paid by McD for this entry.
Nevertheless, i hope this will be entertaining.

To me, McD is a place more than just a fast food restaurant.
It's not about the food.
It's about who you are going with. And that makes everything in McD so special.
And delicious.

Yeap.
It really depends who are ur McD 'kaki's.
So much for the McD here in kuching, its just don't seem tempting or appetite boosting.
I don't miss the food.
I miss eating the food with them.

Introducing my kaki-kaki McD.

After the demonic final exams. After passing up the assignments which sucked our energy entirely. On birthdays. Stress. Conflicts. Etc etc and etc.
We're there at least once a week.
And never grew tired of it.
Relationships always grew each time we visit McD.
It reminds us how we face life challenges together.
And how we managed to make it through together.

Even at times when we were too busy to walk out from the house.
Or when it was too late at night to walk for supper.
And when we were too tired from studying.
It never stopped us.
Just dial a number and give our orders.
And Wa la....the burgers and frenchfries are at the doorstep.
Then everyone will come out from their rooms and gather in front of the TV, with a packet of Mcvalue meals and watch America Next top model, Desperate housewives, So you think you can dance, midnight movies etc etc etc.
Just like a handphone's battery needs to be charged.
Stress were relieved. Strength were given. We support each other through endless studying nights. Not to say we also help each other to gain fats. Haha!

Last year, our class were given an IT assignment. It was about designing a website.
All we could think of is promoting the things that captured our highest interest.
Yeap. McD again.
We enjoyed this assignment though it cost us 4 hours of sleep per day.
We did a great job. Our lecturer, Mr Charles gave us 14/15.

Let me show you a thing or two.
I, as the leader of the group present to you,
my collaborators and
our theme....

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Happy moments in McD

Christina.

Yes? This is the last french fries. Sorry~

Rachel

No. I'm having the last one.

Ying shan

French fries will give you pimples. So ice-cream is better.

Dollie

Yum! I love my fillet-o-fish~ Bet you guys can't open ur mouth as big as mine!

Rachel

Who say one? Look at mine!

Sabrina

You all stand aside. I'm the queen of burgers.

How to eat Big Mac in a McD way

Christina, the master will show you how.

First, take out your burger like this.

Hold your horses. You gotta admire it after that.

Look at the size of it. They don't call it Big Mac for nothing okay.

Then, pick the right angle. Open your mouth wide and big....and you BITE!

Oooooh...The taste is so irresistible....

Satisfaction guaranteed.

I'm lovin' it.
Now, you try.

McDelivery

One hungry stomach?

One call away~

An indescribable satisfaction!

So what are you waiting for? Call now at 1300-13-1300!!!
3 easy steps to have McDonalds right at your doorstep.

Introducing 2007 Newbie - HOT CAKES

Hot and fresh

Topped with sweet sugary syrup

Dig in!

After 30 seconds...

.....Just can't stop

After 1 minute...

Hurry up and grab one!

Almost done...

Second round please~

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I miss school.
I miss the times when things aren't that complicated.
I miss GEPC. By now they are having friendship connection 2008.
Kluang is having Malaysian youth prayer meeting.
I miss everything in KL.
It's not the kind life i'm pursuing for.
But it has everything for me to look forward to.

Anyway.
My only comfort is that my dearest from singapore is coming back to kch for holidays.

Yeah. Don't worry guys. I'll be okay. ;)

I'm torn

2008-07-17T00:27:00.000-07:00

I'm lost

Don't get me involved in this

2008-07-13T20:22:00.001-07:00

I had enough.

Why Must I go thru all these stresses and pressures????

I DUN CARE ANYMORE LIAW LA!!!!

LEAVE ME ALONE!

I DUN CARE WHAT YOU THINK!

I DUN CARE WHAT SHE THINKS!!

I DUN CARE WHOEVER OUTSIDE PPL THINK!!!

I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

WHY MUST I WASTE MY TIME AND ENERGY ON THIS WHOLE THING!

I GOT MUCH IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO!

YOU

SHE

KNOCK IT OFF!

GET A GRIP!

I DUN CARE WHAT RUBBISHNESS U GUYS HAVE!

THAT’S IT

GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!

DON’T DRAG ME INTO YOUR LOVE STORY

GET LOST!

挥着翅膀的女孩

2008-07-09T21:14:00.000-07:00

我不记得是几时了。这篇文章是写给在感情上无怨无悔的女朋友们。我也看到了走过来的自己。。。

感情一旦逝去了,

天下再也没有什么能让它复活。

既然有缘无份,那何需誓言,又何需理由?

已经不记得女孩是谁,却仍然令她忍不住牵肠挂肚的男孩,

对女孩来说,

没有值不值得,只有愿不愿意。

是傻吗?

其实,

女孩并不再奢望要和男孩重新开始。

每一个女孩心里,

永远都再为自己心爱的人着想。

只要为了他好,

就算代价是要自己退出,每天承受椎心之痛,

她也会静静的走开。

她其实也很想快点复原,

永远地脱离男孩所留下的痕迹。

每天都在期待那一天的到来。

所以她很努力, 一直的很努力开创自己的未来。

可是, 难免深夜里会感慨,泪水不断.

她的内心最深处,有个最真的声音,

“你还记得我吗?”

什么都不用说,

只想男孩会一直记得有个女孩为了他不顾一切。

这样就够了,

至少证明自己的感情存在过。

值得了。

可是她永远也不知道男孩的答案…

女孩是弱者吗?

我说她是坚强的。

因为,她不会放弃为明天而寻找出路。

伤痕累累又怎样, 精疲力尽又怎样?

她不断的走,不让自己停留过去。

面对再痛的事实, 她仍然能咬紧牙关的撑过来。

我所认识的女孩, 加油。

我知道, 你每天都在孤军奋战,

每天都在学着放手。

那一天不会太遥远,

我等着看更美丽,自信,能干的女孩。

路虽有起有落,

人来人走,

走的留不住,

可是也有为你停留的。

有一天,你会张开你的双眼,

看到的,感觉到的,

会是广阔的天空,任凭你闯荡。

剩下的只是笑容。

最重要的是心里充实,

人生不是空白的。

好矛盾。。。

2008-07-06T20:37:00.000-07:00

。。。可以吗。。。？

有些事情已经不能重来。

我的感情不是我一个人做得了主。

但是，为什么你的手却如此温暖。。。让我难以取舍？

我好不容易站起来了，走远了，坚强了，开心了。。。

现在要我回头吗？

主啊，我该怎么办？

Randomness

2008-07-05T02:28:00.001-07:00

Someone is going to SABAH for holidays.

And this is my vengeance for not bringing me along...

You be careful, alright?

Dear God, please take care of my love ones.

Update:
Friends, thanks for all the concern. I'm deeply blessed.
Thank God for the healing and restoration for the broken-hearted.
They finally talked today.

My best friend's Birthday

2008-07-04T03:37:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday To Mr. Funkye!

I just don't know how to tell you how much i appreciate our friendship.

With your continuous support,
I managed to pull it through many difficult and painful times of my life.

All these years, thanks for taking care of me.
U helped me to get rid of Kuching-phobia.

Haha. Love you, bro! Let's watch movie again ya!

My baby

2008-07-03T02:17:00.000-07:00

A guitar like no others.

Thanks to Frankie who took the time to accompany me to buy it.

I never thought that i would learn guitar one day.
I'd learned piano since i was 7 years old.
But i gave up when i couldn't pass my grade 8 examination.
A break up with my first love made everything went terribly wrong.

Two times i failed. I got so disappointed in myself and lost all the confidence i had in music.
So i stopped pursuing grade 8.
Nevertheless, i played for my church choirs occasionally.
But ever since i moved to KL, my touch with the piano grew lesser and lesser.

However at early 2008, Jacob put me in charge of my cell group which consisted of 14 members. It was a big challenge for me because i did not where to start and how to run.

One of the obstacles my cell group faced was that we have no regular attending guitarists.
So i began to pray to God to provide one.

But soon God answered me, "Rachel. You have the basics. By faith, take it up again."
I was like, "ME??? how can? I never played guitar before! I'd forgotten all the theories."

I tried to argue somemore. "God, i don't have a guitar. I don't have $$ to buy also. How?"
Few days later, a coursemate of mine called. "Hey Rach, i heard u're looking for a guitar. I have one and i don't play it anymore. You can borrow as long u want."

*speechless*

Well, So i practiced my faith. I went to Joyce's house for two lessons. Then, i just simply play lar. Morning till night, i practiced.

And that's how i fell in love with guitar.
Through self-learning, i'd learned how to play many songs.
And i can serve my cell group with it.

I even performed in my university prom night.

I never knew i could get this far. Thanks to God who believes and has confidence in me.

I remembered i used to dream that one day i would play songs that i love with a guitar.
It's a vision came true.
Not a dream anymore. :)

No. Don't get me wrong. I'm not that good yet. A beginner who is still learning.

:P

Cambodia mission trip - Behind the scenes

2008-07-02T17:06:00.000-07:00

Some people I think I know them... I am so wrong.

I haven't seen everything yet...

They aren't like what they usually appear...

Before this mission trip begun, I've discovered things i never knew before...

I'm about to reveal the other sides of certain people...

To teach you...never judge a book by its cover.

Well, I thought YOU might be interested...

Are YOU sure YOU're ready for this?

Sure?

Here we go.

P/S: The following statements are just based on merely observations. Not judgements.
I repeat. Not judgements.

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It was a bright sun shining 26th April 08. The mission team woke up early in the morning to embark it's journey to a new world - Cambodia.

While waiting for taxi at the bus stop...

I've found out two camwhore queens in the team

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10 smth am. While waiting for CK and Joanne in KL central.

Have you spot something that appeared in both pictures?

The mission team faced the first temptation.

* * * *

Rachel: (munching McD Frenchfries) Pastor Anba. Have you eaten breakfast?

Pastor Anba : No. I was in hurry just now.

Rachel: Like that ar. Come come i give you some fries to eat.

Pastor Anba: No no its okay. I'm not hungry.

Pastor Anba: ................

Pastor Anba: Okay....maybe just a little bit....

***10 minutes later***

* * * *

And then, Pastor Anba 'accidentally' lured Pastor Rueben into it.

Pastor Rueben: Hey, what you got there?

Pastor Anba: Oh erm....McValue meal breakfast....

***10 minutes later***

Pastor Rueben: Make sure nobody sees this. Especially Christina.

Unfortunately Sabrina was the first one to caught him.

Sabrina: PASTOR~!! I thought you wanna keep fit?? Do you know how much calories you're about to consume?????

Pastor Rueben: (Bising la betul) Cambodia don't have McD one you know. Somemore got promotion ar...Faster go get it!

So the cycle went on until everyone gets a packet of McValue meal...

But we just won't let him eat in peace. :P

Pastor Rueben: (Aiya....choose this time to take picture...i want to eat liaw...)

Pastor Rueben: Perfect. Now the coast is clear. FINALLY i can eat!

Now who would ever imagine this fella is a pastor?

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In the team, there's this smart guy named Aloysius.

In Cambodia, Aloy means $$.

Indeed, he is very good in 'bargaining'.

Whenever he's around, we will never rugi.

Aloysius: Wrong liaw Pastor. You see hor...add another 50 cents...my coke add more oz! Like that baru got untung.

Pastor Rueben: ......(Berlagak ini aloy...) Oh is it?

Aloysius: Yeah la of course. See got BIG difference one ar.

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There was also last minute studying.

Amanda: Christina Christina...help me to revise my cambodian language...I'm so nervous i forgot everything liaw...

Christina: Oh okay....(Aiya...i want to buy Big Mac ler....hungry...) -_-'''

***30 minutes later***

Chum riapp sooer....Oor Kunn...Soum thoh.....Bann Hai.....

Sa art nah....Kenyom mokpi malaisi...

Neiksok sabai ciyehtei...

Kenyom sriek tuk...

***Another N/A minutes later***

Amanda: Soum ong kui...Cheriang cheemui kenyom.... Priay Yesu Kri....Kenyom Sraw larnge niek....(went on and on on...)

Christina: (-_-''' h..e..l..p.... Big mac wait for me ya...)

Then someone came to rescue.

Aloysius: I think she is 'shriek tuk' liaw.

('Shriek tuk' means thirsty)

It worked.

Amanda: Hehe. Now i will have absolutely no problems in communication with the cambodians~

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We were still waiting for CK and Joanne.

So some people busy sms-ing.

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In LCCT.

Our plane.

Want to know more about our work in Cambodia?

Click Here:

Part I
Part II
Part III

Ten reasons why i wanna start blogging again

2008-07-01T05:55:00.000-07:00

I've tried xanga, multiply and frienster blog. So, why not give blogspot a shot?
To help me get rid of the laziness in me?
I have hundreds of photos in my laptop. Thought of sharing with u guys. (See how good i am~?)
To practice my HTML skills. (Does that make any sense?)
So that Gary won't miss me too much by updating my life here in kuching.
Because everybody i know writes blog. I also wanna follow the trend ma~
I have too much time. (Okay okay i'm bored to death here)
Because there's no law that say i cannot? (I'm running out of ideas...). Hm...What about Christina asks me to?
I'll write my deepest darkest and funniest secrets here. Hehe. Now wouldn't you be curious~?
I think God wants me to. Okay okay i promise no long sermons.

Hopefully this will not be another 3 minutes hot plate. Based on my past blogging experiences, i'm not keen in updating stuffs around here. So, please bear with me. Who knows i'll be addicted.

Above all, there's only 1 reason why i'm here. I just wanna make this place a secret hiding place where i can write my feelings time to time. Keeping too much flavors in me will drive me crazy. So, 'good' things are meant to share~

Since this will be my personal diary. So keep it secret ok~?

This is for anyone who misses me, just in case.

p/s: Nah...this photo was taken months ago. Hehe.